P-sm :D

I NEED MONEY BADLY LOL

2012-02-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

I need money badly.
To buy so so so many things.
Money is such a headache issue.
Damn.

Totally regretted what I did to my spare cash. ):
Zzzzz now i need it for school fees yo.
Grrrrrr, bye.

Robot talks

2012-01-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

I really felt talking to myself in the previous post, LOL.
Ohgay, here's my recent favourite pic ^^

Start of sem2!

2012-01-17T23:05:00.000+08:00

Hi bloggie!

First week of sem2 ended!
Official start of all the tutorials and projects.
Deadlines and test dates all coming up.
Oh well.... told myself that I will work hard, hopefully it does work.
Felt very tense up idek why. D:
After screwing up the previous sem so badly, expectations of myself rose, very high.
Everything I do, i kept wondering if I am doing the right thing and if i can do it.
Not to be ambitious or what, but i'm really aiming for GPA 4.5 this sem.
Reason because... I really need to cover whatever I've lost in the previous sem.
Sigh. If only i did better. :(
No point sighing at this point of time & when all the review results are out and that says no change to your results.
I'm not pinning much hope on that stupid review that wasted my money, but well, despite saying that i'm not pinning much hope on it, when the results is out, you'll still feel disappointed to a certain extent yeah?
Never felt so sucky before.
This feeling has been with me since the release of results and I still remembered the date, clearly.
22nd Dec 2011.

22nd......... again.
Never seem to have good things happening on 22nd, like 5 years ago.
Wow, 5 years. Such a long time already but that thing keeps running in my mind sometimes.
It's so hard to let something go. :/
You've already begin w your own life and yet i'm still over here thinking about things that happened 5 years ago -___- oh man, grow up.
And worse, they cannot be retrieved back yeah........

Okay whatever, stupid 22nd.

~~bought something and yet realising that you already have it. shiat. but i can't possibly keep it as well ~__~ zzz. shall see how it goes.~~

That's all for today psm.
Back to your tutorial! (:

Hwaiting~

2012-01-12T18:46:00.000+08:00

Determined! :)

Sad life

2012-01-03T19:08:00.001+08:00

Idk why I am feeling this way.
Seriously have no idea.
This is so-not-me ~__~
What happen to that psm.

Alright.
I think i need to find out what is the problem seriously.
But the problem definitely lies in me.
Sigh.

Last day of 2011

2011-12-31T23:52:00.000+08:00

Hi diary,

I am here again lol.
Last day of 2011.
Well, usually this point of time i'm always thinking what I want for a brand new year, but today, instead of that, i feel like talking more about what happen in 2011.
I should say, i could never able to remember everything, but some of the more significant stuffs. :)

Oh well, let me start with the early of 2011.
Was working under the green hub, if you know what i mean, you'll get it.
Well, i admit that i didn't enjoy that much initially because of all the stress and I see the cruelty of society in there, lol. But, i don't deny people in there are really good. Helpful at least. And yep, of course met a few friends that are still in contact now :)
Though we came from different school, but well, it's fate that we're friends under the green shelter.

Sickening & shihui! Those who helped me alot in my studies esp. Perhaps not literally teach me, but well, they are helping me by giving me information that they can. Really appreciate of that esp when i'm someone who is like so blur and miss out everything that i can missed in the world. -.-

Coming up next will definitely be ass & kat. Kat is a very... "loud" person? haha! okay perhaps not that loud, but someone who has alot of thoughts within herself! She's outspoken? (after knowing her) LOL. & yeah, i will never forget the first time that we met each other lol. Like NEVER forget. :)

Then will be that ass! Though I only managed to get close to her towards the end of the whole green contract when we're about to leave the place, but it's never too late. I would say she's a weird and caring friend LOL. okay, shall not use the word weird, but rather, someone hard to understand? haha. I thought i understand her, but actually i don't. Similar yet different. I would use this to describe our mindset/way of thoughts. But well, she definitely has more thoughts and own opinions compared to me ;)

Really hope all of us will keep in touch like how we did now.
I'm kinda really afraid of distances idky :/

Okay move on!
Oh yeah! I travel with my friends out of SG for the first time! To Phuket! :D Phuket was awesome! A fun and relaxing place! It's really nice to travel overseas with friends. Really want to do so again. Okay, but i need money!

June-July, i left the green hub. With a heavy heart. Because of some mistakes i've made. Everytime i go back to that building, i rlly don't feel good lol. I have no idea why. Just feel quite terrible. Never pon anything before in sch (excluding uni lol) before honestly, and that was the first time i pon work and yeah, those things happened. Well, lesson learnt. LOL. But it's okay, learn as you go along. Since if you knew something is wrong from the very start, then don't do it.

August. I start school. Wasn't a good start because I didn't join any camp, so i was a loner in school lol. Except that i knew some of my tut mates. Glad that they didn't mind me and willing to help me if i need help. But... uni; ultimately you still need to depend on yourself. Yeah, really yourself, i mean MYSELF. Hmmmmmm. So many emotions when talked about uni. :/

Oh yeah, stayed hall with Vicky! :) well, hall isn't THAT fun as you guys describe to ME because i am a loner again, lol. Skipped all the camps as well. lmao, i really wish to restart my whole uni life but it's too late. Move on D:

Hmm, somehow results for semester 1 in uni affected me alot. Like really alot :(
This shows that I really need to buck up. A stone really hit me hard. Never fail something that i need to retake before and this is the first time. -.-
GRR. GET RID OF ALL DISTRACTIONS!

which i guess is kpop lol.

Not as if i'm very into it, but... i need to get in touch w them because of blogshop and stuffs.
So seriously wondering if i should give that up as well...... sigh.

But well, kpop do bring me smiles as well :)
It's a way to distress. Somehow looking at their variety shows and laugh it out does make me distress alil lol. But too much of it is really harmful :/
Need to learn to control.

I guess one of the things I would rmb would be the night of concerts.
Surprisingly, i remembered more clearly snsd concert compared to shinee one.
All i rmb for shinee was the heart that key did XD lol.
But i would say, snsd concert was really an influence to me lmao.
Was still telling ass that I feel touched that she could make it to see her tiffany, but well, snsd, you guys.... is really (Y)
Other than the power of sones, you guys just.... -speechless-
Idk how to describe but yeah. :) good job LOL.

There seems alot I still want to say but too much.
2011 is a year full of memories, good, bad, sad, happy, excitment, exposed to new stuffs and many more.
From working experience at green hub, to starting my new life in uni, to knowing more about entertainment. WOW. I would say, i learn alot from it. :)

& one sad thing that happened is definitely that my maid left us, today, the last day of 2011.
Really really miss her. I mean, afterall, it's a 13-14 years of relationship.
Well, really hope she is doing well over back home.
I knew this day will definitely come no matter what, but well, just need time to get used to it. (:
Kinda regret that I didn't spend enough time w her & my family.
Seeing how my mum teared today just make me feel sad. My maid is gone, my mum will be alone at home. Nobody for her to rant to, as most of us are either schooling or working.

Yeah, there's really ALOT of things that happened in 2011 :(
Friends distanced.
I made new friends.
I entered a new school, my future.
People around me leave.
Sigh. So emotional -.-"

Alright!
Shall stop thinking about it!
Move on! Believe I can do better in 2012! :)

Resolution... hmmm!
Seems like I have alot to write/make.
Shall continue my resolutions tomorrow or later! ^^

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE.
I LOVE YOU. (:

Believe

2011-12-29T01:40:00.000+08:00

Honestly speaking, i really wonder if I know you well.
I doubt I do. I really don't think i do.

I suck in everything.
I take things too seriously, like a gan chiong spider.
Thats why I landed myself in this stage.
Seriously speaking, i really wonder why am i doing all these.
I really want to give up.
But i really don't bare to.
What can I do? What should I do next?

I thought i'd have gotten over.
But until today, I realised I haven.
Teacher talked to me yesterday. It was a very harsh talk, but well, like what sind said, "i deserve this".
Unknowingly, this topic became a very sensitive one to me.
It was .... terrible. Sigh.

My heart really feels terrible.
Why am i feeling this way.
So many things seem to crash on me at the same time.
My life seemed different after that night.
I became more vulgar. (shit)
I became more sensitive (shit shit)

Sometimes its really hard to pretend happy in front of someone.
Yet, I really dont wish to affect anyone with my emotions.
What is this..
What is life..
What have I become..

So much mixed feelings recently.
People do distant from each other. It's how you manage it. I guess you enjoyed your current life and need the current people more than friends in the past? But well, i guess the current life you're leading is something you want isn't it? Good for you. I really hope you haven forget about me.

Had a great boxing day 3 days back. Though christmas was boring because I spend it all alone, not even with my family as they have their own things to do, but well, boxing day just covered everything (: I once said i regret working in there, but perhaps I would take back my words because of the friends i've made there. Well, it's just something unexplainable & i'm really glad that we're still in contact (:

& many administration stuffs need to take care of. Tired. Sick and tired of everything. Sigh.

Felt so much better talking to the air.
Goodnight world, the quiet world, the sad world, the depressed world.
The miserable world.

Saw this and really find it meaningful.

Just less than 2 weeks before holiday ends.
Wonder what will happen when school starts.
Been telling myself things will be better & i can do it.
But sometimes, you will really wonder if you can.
I guess what is most important is Never Doubt Yourself; but i never fail to do this everytime :/

Oh well.
Really feel like going on to rant and rant, but it gna be endless.
Shall end now.

I hate F.

2011-12-22T01:10:00.001+08:00

Depressed.
Demoralised.
I can only blame myself.
F.

Changed skin

2011-12-09T18:02:00.001+08:00

Wheeeeeeee. (:
Finally changed the skin.
Dec 2011. Time flies.
My previous previous post was still complaining about uni life lol.
Holiday now. And today's the 9th of Dec.
Everyone is saying about holy air, why?
Because SNSD is in sg. Hahaha.
Never thought myself would be part of the people watching their concert.
But yes, i'm watching them tomorrow, their last day.
Personally feel that first day would be more exciting because they will be more nervous as well.
But well, second day they'd prolly be more high? Hah, i hope so lol.
Spend my day editing those html code etc. Waste time.~
My new site is not ready yet, still waiting for the admin of the site to fix the server, lol.
Not easy..... tsktsk.

Alright. Thats all.
Will update more often (i hope)
LOL.
I doubt anyone is reading this but just.... talking to myself (;

Lwy is in america currently. Enjoy! (L)

A locket.

2011-09-18T16:08:00.002+08:00

Swc was great :D
I see key.
Yes infront of me.
:')

Key!!!! :D

:)

2011-08-20T13:14:00.000+08:00

HOHO.Just talked to my brother regarding some website issue and he's going to come up with a website for me! And i gna give him 20% of my revenue. LOL. (thats provided if he can come up with one) HAHA.

Alright, just to save this blog from rotting i posted.
Have been staying in hostel for about 2 weeks.
Hmmmm. Kind of get used to the life a bit already.
Independent, i can see in myself now.
Doing everything myself, no longer relying on my maid (who is leaving soon. sigh)
Well. Uni life.... stressed up with presentation and projects.
Hopefully i can really get used to this.
I'm used to studying by book but now its totally a different case.

& yeah, i took up kolean module :)
First lesson was fun! But i missed one lesson before that so kinda very lost :/
Hoping someone can save me D:
Really hope i can cope with this sem.
Gna try to do well (i mean, who doesnt want to) lol and continue with level 2 korean next sem. Though from what i heard, next sem for me will be quite packed~ lol.

Ahh. Going out soon.
A very rush post. :)
Will update more next time!
Bye bloggie! :D

Oh shucks ):

2011-07-23T03:00:00.001+08:00

Gosh.This sucks.
I happily deleted all my photos in my google+ and now all the photos i uploaded here all gone.
Meaning... all my past photos that i uploaded in this blog can't be viewed.
Okay, this sucks.
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Sad-ed.

Oh well.
Today is kinda a bad day, lol.
Mentally a bad day.

Why does everyone seem to doubt what i say..
Sigh.
Yeah, badly affected.
._____________.

I say 1+1=2, you don't believe me D: D: D:
1+1=2 is a fact! okay whutever.
Bye~

Anyway, thanks luo.
Owe you one!

//failureforever.

;

2011-07-16T01:20:00.000+08:00

Shall some autograph session photos held at Bugis Junction on 10/07/11 :)
Look at how cute my lwy is~ XD
Yes, she's my lover ^^ haha. MINE. LOL.

Okay.
Trying to calm myself down from the talk my mum had with me just now.
Problem revolves around the same.
Same old problem...... :(((((((((
Sigh.

Well.
Anyway.
16th Jul today.
Happy birthday Perh Zhi Hao, my kind younger brother.
I'm so sorry that i've hurt you the day before your birthday. :/
Yeah. I'm sorry.. :'((((

Sigh..
No mood.
Well, goodbye.

D:

2011-07-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry..

THE HAPPENING REPLAY

2011-07-14T02:39:00.001+08:00

Wohooo.Finally there's a reason for me to blog and share about my life.
And yes, it's you LWY. (:

Before i begin what exactly happen that past four days, sometimes i really wonder what makes me love you so much. And somehow after that 4 days, i realise something that i feel that it's the reason.
1. You do not have the idol-status feel. You make us, as fans feel comfortable and yes, really comfortable :)
2. Your voice is still.... that good. Or i should say even better. After producing 3rd album, and hearing you sing 1st album and 2nd album songs, the feeling is different when i hear you sing last time when you just start singing. I feel that you've grown up, and we watch you grow :')
3. Your perserverance and belief in something touched me. Yes, although i'm not your religion, i feel your passion and belief in your religion. You use your life to sing each and every religion song. I feel your thankfulness. Yes, i'm truly touched :')
4. I love you, for who you are. You're pretty when you chose to. You're cute when you do crazy stuffs. You speak what's on your mind. Yes, i love you, lwy :')

Somehow i wish to translate the above to chinese and send it to her, lol. But typing / writing chinese is a chore to me now, lol. Well, idk how to express my love for you. I hope you can feel it, lol XD

Oky, this gna be a long post but yeap, i want to say about the past 4 days :D

First day: Airport&Scape event.
It was my first time fetching her. In the past, i'm always having lessons when it comes to welcoming her to SG. But this time, i have the time! Wohoo. And first time fetch her takes me one hour. Lwy ah... you made all our neck grow long~ LOL. Well, after about like 45 minutes of wait, we finally see her small body walking towards Belt 21. Oh yeah, we saw her pink luggage long ago and it kept turning at the belt because she hasn't come out to claim it, lmao. And she was on make up, no sunglasses, hehe ^^
As usual, i walked quite behind while others are rushing to stand beside her, lol. Walked her to the van with plate number 8778 XD talked awhile then she slowly move into the van and off she goes. Where do we go after that? EAT. LOL. Thats our routine every time. Haha.

Blah blah blah...
Then moved on to Scape for her event. It was the DJ competition. Everything was so awkward because it wasn't really like her stage and she was just a guest XD haha.

First live in SG: Hai shi peng you~ :D Video: http://youtu.be/OUKzhrpidjA

OH YA, AND THIS:
Ughhhhhhh. Somehow i wish i'm the girl! AHHHHH *screams*
Oh well, i think she's the DJ champ. LOL.

Hmmmm.
That was the first day.. & it was just the first day, i remember grumbling saying that i'm already very tired, lol. XD
Went to eat again &go home awaiting for more exciting events! (:

Second day: Music showcase & Shieng Shiong Show :D
First time to St.James! (:
She upgrade from small small lunar bar to bigger St.James!
When will then be SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM ?!?!?!?!
Yes, we are all waiting~~ (: (: (:

Reached there at about 3.30 when the showcase starts at 6pm, lmao. Kiasu fc ppl. Haha. Did some admin work. At about like 4pm, public starts to queue up already, LIKE WOW. First time! Then blah blah blah, sweat sweat sweat, changed to fc tee & start distributing flyers to raise awareness. Afterwhich, finally our turn to go in. Got stucked outside because my ticket was with someone but luckily got extra few tickets~
Went in and wow, the place was really much bigger & DARKER. LOL.
Finally our lovely qing ren is out :D

LWY SHOWCASE AT ST.JAMES POWER STATION (:

High high high~ :D

Never fail to say hello to her audiences ^^

Unpluggggggg~ My fav.

Found my favourite pics taken at showcase:

HAHA XD

YES I KNOW YOU GOT NEW BOTTLE, GREEN SOMEMORE :)

Lwy, what's with your mouth~ XD

Wohooo. So fun! :D
After that, no have encore, so we left immediately and rush for the next show.
We're like more rush than her, tsktsk.
Luckily, smart me suggested to book a bus instead of taking cab (can't imagine if we take cab, much more ex & difficult to call cab at such an area .__.)
Bonding in the bus, so much fun :D
Passing breads around to fill our stomach! Miss those times. & yes, the whole bus is pink! A pity, i don't have a photo of it. How cool imagine. LOL.
Okay, self-high. Lmao

SHENG SHIONG SHOW.
It may seem boring because our attention is to wait for lwy. But... the entertainer (the wu-song of the show) makes us laugh like shit, lol. And we even have an he-chang of lwy's qing ren zhi ji during commercial breaks :D haha. COOL. LIKE IT. (but some guy's voice just made me laugh LOL, okay i know i'm bad XD hahaha)

Though we are kinda far, but... she still can see us and wave to us ^^

Shieng shiong seems fun!
With the "bai bei bai bei" LOL. &when zhong qin open the box that says "x100" we really feel one gush of excitement as if the money is ours. -.- haha. I'm serious! Can go try to go one of their episodes, LOL.

Tired and shagged max, went straight home after that. Eh, no, went to eat Macs first.
Hungry yknw~ LOL.
Reached home slept straight away.

Third day: City Harvest (i didn't go) + AUTOGRAPH SESSION :D
City harvest was really touching. Lwy was the special guest for the chinese session one. Hmm, was kinda too early so i didn't make it. Watched her video for that day... And yes, i cried, LOL. Uhm, just... too touching. Like i mentioned, her perserverance & beliefs... amazed me. (:
Went straight to bugis for her autograph session ^^
Weather was just too hot in the afternoon. Reached about 230 when it starts at 4. Again, we need to BOOK place. LOL.
Then just before the autograph session, it rains. Zzzz. Every year autograph is like that &I still rmb last year's auto, we all took umbrella while she sing, lmao.
Then we decided to dao-gao (meaning like pray~) together! I'm amazed again. Lol. Personally i'm not a christian, and yep, we all just come tgt and did that. And before she comes out, yes, the rain really stops. I'm not too sure if it's us that made it work but yeah, just AMAZED. (:
This time round, she's super generous! She sang 3 songs! Heh.

VIDEOS SPEAKS IT ALL :)
Yes lwy, 爱你的承诺不是气球~
(不是放手了就没有了)

Oh well!
3 days of event just ended like that..
So fast.
Everyone really don't bear her to leave SG. LOL.
Stay here okay? I buy rou gu cha for you everyday! :) lol.

Last day: AIRPORT
Overslept (as usual) LOL.
Supposed to meet Ivon but apparently, the bus missed her stop and she decided to cab there. Tsktsk.
Waited patiently for 8778 van to come.
And yes, lwy is eating in the van. LOL.
Walked quietly over there and her assistant was carrying her luggage out from the van to check in. One of us went to help to take trolley to put their luggages.
& OMG, LWY'S LUGGAGE IS JUST TOO HEAVY. LOL.
None of us are able to carry it up to put on the trolley except her assistant. Macho! (Y) haha.
I really wonder what's inside.
ALL BAKUTEH PACKAGING? HAHA.

And due to miscommunications, we bought a total of 7 panda cakes for her to bring back, LOL.
We pity da-wei-ge (her assistant). He was in total :O (shocked) when he see those cakes XD hahaha.
Well, lwy loves them ^^

LALALALA.
That's so-happening of my life for that 4 days.
I don't mind it repeating it in my life everyday. :)
COME ON. COME SG AGAIN PLEASE.
AND PLEASE TELL US AND NOT A SECRET PLAN. LOL.

Wow, i used 1 hour to write this.
Okay, my neck is breaking and shoulder is dislocating.
Shall end off here. BYEBYE LWY :')
I MISS YOU.

-withdrawal sympoms i see-

//edited.
Suddenly remembered what happened at the autograph session! Lol.
One of my albums inside no CD. So i hand itchy, went to write on post-it for lwy to see, just wanting to see her cute reaction XD
She immediately turned to xuan chuan and say "tsktsk, 真是太糟糕了，快换一个给她”
And guess what the xuan chuan said: "Don't complain here la, want complain go the shop! Why come stage complain"
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
That wasn't my main motive luh! D:
Okay, i feel damn guilty because i think she somehow did tell xl/sind about this. lol. Okay, i hope you really know the main point was really about the CD ~~ T___T
And lwy said sorry to me T.T nah, no sorry k! Not about the CD. At least i see your cute reaction :/
^^

Well well well.
I'm still feeling quite guilty until now, idk why.
Tsktsk.

I'm currently still missing that 4 days.
Shall end my story here~
15/07/11 1:15am (:

Speechless~

2011-06-22T10:18:00.000+08:00

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

Ow.... speechless.

Somehow 'Born to be a lady' is now playing in my head, lol.

D: feeling kinda low, dk why.

LOVE IS IN THE AIR (:

2011-06-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

当昨天画上句点何不就让它悄悄如烟
看今天更光鲜别忘了还有明天
选你将来的志愿一步步再慢慢去实现
不管路有多远有多险有多圈

在这无悔无怨的明星新世界
我遇见了美丽丑陋的脸
喝酸甜苦辣一长天但是我情愿
为感动为明天

痛虽然有深有浅泪擦干那就会好一点
风虽然看不见但自由无极限

当昨天画上句点何不就让它悄悄如烟
看今天更光鲜别忘了还有明天
选你将来的志愿一步步再慢慢去实现
不管路有多远有多险有多圈

在这无悔无怨的明星新世界
我遇见了美丽丑陋的脸
喝酸甜苦辣一长天但是我情愿
为感动为明天

痛虽然有深有浅泪擦干那就会好一点
风虽然看不见但自由无极限
Remember this song? (':
I love this drama.
Every episode is sad.
Every episode has a meaning.
Every episode describes a different family.
Every episode tells us that we are really fortunate to have what we have now.
Suddenly feel like hugging all my friends & family telling them how much i love them.
:D lol.

Well.
Treasure the present. (:
Though you may regret things that has already passed, just make sure you don't do it again in the future.
Omg, why am I so into thoughts suddenly, lmao.

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND.
I LOVE YOU MY DAD.
I LOVE YOU MY MUM.
I LOVE YOU MY BRO.
I LOVE YOU MY MAID.
Yes. I love you all. (:

Shucks, this song's fault -.-" Zzzzzzzzzzz.
Shall turn in earlier today (i hope)

Baby ^^

2011-06-16T01:38:00.000+08:00

Look at how cute she is.
Even she's on the stage, she never fail to forget us.
Love you 北鼻 ^_____^

Random

2011-06-16T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hey yo bloggie! It's 1am in the morning!
Not as if today is friday LOL. I got work tml but still up at this time, lucks to me tml. Haha.
Okay random of me posting a blog post right now... :)

Several thoughts in my mind that i feel like pening down to make myself feel better :)
Oh anyway, i bought laptop at the recent PC show cum IT fair at suntec :D
I bought Toshiba. Okay, i don't really like the brand name because it just sound so... 'SONG' in dialect, whatever you called that. Lol. But idk why i didn't really look at other brands before deciding on this.
Perhaps the specs of this com just attracted me. Haha.
It's like having the highest performance gHz after boosting i've seen so far, so yep. :)
Yq's HP one seems not bad too. Like the audio & blue ray quality! But.. just a bit too wide huh. Haha.
But the weight is almost the same as mine though. (seems to be) hmmmm.

Imagine bringing a 2.3kg laptop to school everyday!
And worse, i guess i won't be staying in hostel (i'd love to if I can) so having to travel 2 hours with this heavy lappy in my hand, i guess i'd be tired and dead before any lectures / projects to be done. LOL.
Well.. let's just hope i will get used to it & my lappy don't die on me k :)
Heartxzxz you. LMAO.

Leave or not leave? Hmmmm.
I hate staying, but i can't bear to leave just the one/two of them there.
Just leave together can we? D:
Sigh.

Starting school on 1st Aug.
NBS Camp on 18 Jul. Union camp on 24 Jul. I guess i'd skip the union camp though. Too tiring for me though i know i'd be kind of fun :) haha. Well, i may not even get in in the first place :O

Okay, i'm talking so RANDOMLY~
Share share share!
LWY IS COMING TO TOWN, YES TO SG OF COURSE :D

Dates:
9th Jul - Music Showcase @ St. James Powerstation.
Please purchase her album 'Soulmate' for the ticket entry.
(Somehow hoping my friends around me will go, budden.... forget it)

10th Jul - Autograph session @ Bugis Junction, Bugis Sq Level 1.
I got like 3 copies of her album now. Sign longer = look at her longer = I will smile longer = probably talk to her longer = HAPPY FOREVER. LOL (:
&&& i guess there's the shieng shiong show at night live performance as well. Like yay! :D

She's coming on 8th & leaving on 11th.
Should be after i quit alr. Yay! Can commit fully :D heh.
Excited~~~ Wohooo :)

Okay, back to reality.
I suck.
T.T

Yes, it's baby again ^^

2011-06-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

YES. I WILL SING THIS ONE DAY ALL BY MYSELF. HAHA.
COOL :)
GOOD TO BE THE LAST SONG FOR K. :D

I miss lwy so badly now. LOL.
She's coming SG :D :D :D
One more month!

Details:
梁文音[情人。知己]音乐会
日期：7月9日（星期六）
时间：6pm
地点：St James Powerstation, Powerhouse

梁文音[情人。知己]签唱会
日期：7月10日（星期天）
时间：4pm
地点：Bugis Junction, Bugis Square Level 1
YES. I'm waiting for you here! Come come come k :)
LOVEYOU北鼻~ :)

好的事情 :D

2011-06-05T01:17:00.001+08:00

休息是為了走更長的路你就是我的旅途
都是因為你我一直漫步
想要跟你一起走到最後但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動時分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情也許能夠重複
感動時分就算紛紛模糊
不要哭至少你和我記得很清楚
愛是為彼此祝福

想要跟你一起走到最後但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動時分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

Yes. I'm in love with this song :)
Partly because it's 電視劇醉後決定愛上你片尾曲 but his voice really not bad.
And most importantly.. THE LYRICS (Y)

Tired? Take a break. Listen to this. :D
Okay, this is not a very happy song thou, lol.
But still, i love emo songs. HAHA.

Has been quite into kpop recently. LOL.
I've been complained by some of my friends whats wrong with me.
Okay, i've got no idea also.
Partly because i'm mending the blog thats why.
Well, kpop is kinda nice thou :) wohoo~

And i'm really a failure because i can't differentiate between japan and korean version of snsd songs. LOL.
Someone help me please.
Seeking help sincerely~ LMAO.

Goodnight peeps.

Lwy, please come visit me soon k.
Early july, i wait for you.
(L)

& opps, i've not say about my phuket trip XD LOL.

我们都傻

2011-05-22T02:10:00.000+08:00

難道你沒有看見　看見我對你的好
還是你忘了　那些數不清的愛情軌跡
你說我傻　傻在愛上只懂愛自己的人
我說你傻　傻在愛他　你的眼睛騙不了人
我們都傻　傻在為一段沒有未來的愛情付出
還在期待　會有奇跡出現
你說我傻　傻在愛上沒有感情的分身
我說你傻　傻在愛他就不值得奮不顧身
我們都傻　傻在寧願被犧牲也不願放棄天真
還在期待　還有奇跡出現
誰沒有為愛做過傻事

我說我傻　傻在愛上沒有感情的分身
你說你傻　傻在愛他就不值得奮不顧身
我們都傻　傻在寧願被犧牲也不願放棄天真
還在期待　還有奇跡出現
還在期待　還有奇跡出現

NICE SONG.
I can't wait for the full version to come out.
Rainie, are you releasing new album? Hahaha. I hope so.. (:
Nice drama, nice song, (Y)

Oh well, i've yet to talk about my Phuket trip.
Wait for me! Alot to say ^___^ hope i won't be lazy to say them, heh.

Why am i feeling this way.
Think too much again~
D:

Midnight post.

2011-05-14T01:10:00.000+08:00

It's like 1 am now, to be exact 1.05am.
Going out with Cat and Fish later, LOL. (Opps XD)
Oh well, was looking at my previous post about the things i wna buy! There's more! :D
I wanna buy.. WATCH! :D Should i wait for lwy's new baby G design to be out? HEE ^^ I feel like getting her limited edition one, but its expensive and.. i think i won't bear to wear it also ): haha. Maybe an adidas one? Shall see :D

And.. I wanna buy.. TOMS! :D
All because of yq! Lol. Was looking for spree for her and it kind of tempted me to buy that. Mt is wearing that to phuket and i'm jealous! LOL. Okay, shall save up and buy in june heh ^__^ Hopefully its not a fake one~ *pray* hahaha.

Okay, my eyes are closing! Luckily tml no tuition, if not i will die!
Gotta head somewhere else first for surprise later on!
Wanna do a card~~~~~ should I? Hmm.. (:

Okay, goodnight earthlings!
:D

2 more days to phuket! 1 more day only in fact, since it has already past 12am :D
WOHOO~ Time to relax! (:
But i feel bad towards yq because i left her alone to do all the stuffs D:
Hope everything is well and okay!
(L)

At work :/

2011-05-05T14:15:00.000+08:00

Sudden urge to post the things i wanna buy!
I think i will exceed alot for my May expenses b'cos of the Thai trip, so all these shopping stuffs have to be postponed to next month, June! :D
I wanna buy..
1. Digital Camera - Nikon coolpix! Or maybe Cannon?
Looking at a few models, still considering! Waiting for IT fair :D
2. Polariod (?) - unsure, but seems cool and fun to have one (:
3. WALLET - preferably a long one? XD hahaha.
Looking at Gmarket for this~ Heh.
4. SHOES! :D
Saw a few that i feel like buying but its just.. too.. ex D:
Okay, what else~~~~

5. Long cotton pants.
Feel like getting those kind yknw~ dancers pants? hahaha. Idk how to say!
6. Jeans!
Have been wearing jeans like everyday and i seriously think i need a new one! (:
I wna buy back the brand Options! Nice pattern plus its comfortable among all the jeans i have ^___^ (maybe because the others are all cheap-skate, hahaha)
Though its some ulu brand, but its not cheap yknw~ it's like... at least 80bucks for one jeans? haha.
Okay shut up.

Any more things i feel like buying? ... Hmm..
Must think.
I bet there's more (: hahaha.

Okay, i'm really like talking to myself, but who cares, LOL.
I'm at work and bored.
Waiting for my lunch now ^__^
Hungry hungry hungry~
Alright, my Mac is coming back soon.
That's all for now.
Goodbye peeps.

Oh yeah, i wanna sing K and cycle. ^___* (wink)

BORED.

2011-05-02T15:39:00.000+08:00

I'm bored ~ ~ ~
Blogging while at work :D
Anws, happy labour day! :D

Listening to lwy's voice, aww (:
Hahahaha.
Cannot wait cannot wait~
^____^

LWY LWY LWY :D

2011-05-01T13:06:00.000+08:00

OMG SHE SO CUTE :D :D And yes, i love her new album (must emphasize again) HAHAHA.
Can't wait for her to be in sg (: (: (:
Glad that she's going HK during the period that i'm overseas, so won't clash :P HEH.
Can't wait to get her album with those preorder gifts~~
FASTER 5TH MAY!! :D

Okay, i feel excited so decided to come post this.
Thats' all ^___^ hahaha.
Oh ya one more thing! :D

Went to eat Red Pig (Korean food) yesterday and omg, super full! Tried Soju (small rice wine you called that) and omg, the alcohol smell is super strong~ LOL. Guess how much i spent? $42.80! LOL. And we really eat alot alot. We kind of call too much dishes XD hahaha. Luckily today no work (: It's labour day yo~ REST! (: Heh.

I still can't tele the money ): Failed as wanting-to-be-an-accountant -_____-
I'm really a failure~ cannot stand myself.
Bye peeps, will come back soon ^__^

SIGH.

2011-04-29T23:54:00.001+08:00

Nice nice nice song~ REALLY NICE (L)
Touching and nice (:

Today is 29th! :D
The day of release of album~ but unfortunately, singapore is only releasing it on 5th May D:
Heard the whole album online and yay, its nice! (: Heh.
Breakdown of the song in the album:
01. 情人知己
02. 一百萬種親吻
03. Happy Holiday
04. 受不了
05. 我們都別哭
06. 孩子
07. 姊妹淘
08. 夠幸褔了
09. 遺忘天使
10. 還是朋友

Before the official release, most of her songs alr heard the preview and yes, its nice XD hahaha. Like when i will say her songs are not nice, heh. But.. it's so difficult to sing! Oh man.. [:

Waiting for 5th May..
One more week! (:

Sigh.
Back to the main topic of blogging.
Feel so so so sad today.. I've got no idea why.
Maybe i'm just being affected. (idk why i am also, hate it this way)
Mission, must i take up? I kind of decided to take it up and things happened today made me feel like changing my mind, like seriously.
I feel that whatever i do is kind of like not worth? -.-"
UGH. What the shit luh~
Okay, back to the same old line that i always like to say because thats really how i felt.
"I don't feel appreciated at all" Zzzzzzzzzzz~
Whatever, tml will be better (i really hope) if not it'd be so.. a_k_a_d ):

Shall end my post with a smiley which i feel that it's quite cute.. [:
Bought a few things online these few days. Hope they faster arrive, can't wait ^__^

I flew back here~

2011-04-23T16:27:00.001+08:00

Okay, if you look at my previous post you may be wondering why so weird.
Hahahaha. I tried to migrate to another blog but ended up, i decided to come back here :/ LOL.
Because i think this link is so much better.
Though i like my new link also XD
Shall set that as my private blog then (: heh.

Alright, 5 more days to new album ~ (:
Cannot wait !! hahaha.

Imported all my post from my new blog back to this blog lol (:
And i'm very into internet shopping recently -.-" hahaha.
Oh anw, set up a 'blogshop' recently for my mum because she's doing some small business in flea market. HAHA.
Support k ((:

Will post soon ^^

Oh anyway, i think my background is cute. Heh.
(Edited 454pm)

Survivie~

2011-04-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

Frankly speaking, i still love my previous link - sevenloveseleven (:
Hahaha. I don't know why but yeah. Reminds me of alot of things! Haha.

Alright, today got to do what we call the admin work~ Hmm..
Not as relax as i thought.
But at least i don't have to take inbound? Hmm, but the pay is lesser.
Will i regret? I hope not.
At least i can be the same shift, same break as yq (: hahaha.
Luckily i've got her and kat that pull me through everything.. woah. (:
I really need great friends working in there. Sucky environment but with awesome friends, everything will stay alive :D sound very extreme but everyone felt that way, haha.

There's work tml. Dang, its monday dude! haha.
Anyway.. Just sent in preorder for lwy's album! :D
Can't wait (: (: (:
Loves!

LOVE LOVE LOVE :D

2011-04-10T23:26:00.003+08:00

Introduction :D :D :D

走向未來的勇氣與力量--梁文音的【情人知己】

聽見傷心的故事，她一定第一個流淚
聽見幸福的分享，她也是第一個為你破涕微笑
她的歌聲有一股真誠的力量
她唱的是情人的眼淚也是知己的安慰
梁文音2011年全新專輯【情人X知己】

2011年風和日麗的3月初，剛要出發去日本福井縣時，
梁文音推著行李箱到機場，帶著笑容問：『福井是一個怎麼樣的地方啊？』

有人說：福井是一個充滿平實幸福的地方；還有人說：福井是日本「和紙」的產地之一，就像「越前和紙」般細膩柔和。
那裡沒有燈紅酒綠的霓虹燈，擁有扎實生活的安全感，做為描繪【情人知己】故事的場景再貼切不過！
文音在【情人知己】MV裡詮釋一個在陌生城市尋找自我的女孩，在四季的輪迴中，看到幸福人生的方向。
貼切的傳達歌詞裡的意境「幸福很難，我相信，只要我們夠努力，沿途搖啊晃啊也都是美景……」，
這樣幸福淡定的過程讓梁文音深深的愛上福井這個地方，而福井給梁文音的回應，是大自然景色中哼唱出的【情人知己】。

【情人知己】MV拍攝期間正值311東日本地震，與世紀浩劫擦身而過，在沈靜春雪飄墜的回程，
梁文音滿懷掛心與感念，衷心祈禱：『受震地區所有的人們，能夠早日復原，再展笑顏！』

其他梁文音最新消息請至【餘音繞梁-梁文音後援會http://liangwenyin.net】

Looking forward :D

2011-03-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

Excited. Very excited about this.
Faster come 8th April :D

Migration

2011-03-31T23:24:00.004+08:00

Psm has migrated (:

210311

2011-03-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

Opps, it has been a week! So fast! hahah.
I'm 19 years old + 1 week (: LOL.
I'm supposed to post this on my day cos' I wanted to talk more about my birthday but i'm lazy XD Heh.

Shall briefly talk about it hahaha. Hmm.
Really thank my colleagues to celebrate with me after work.
Though i know its kind of last minute planned, but i'm happy with it (:
I know they will never see this, but just wanna say a big thank you! hahaha.
Though i don't like the job i'm doing now, but colleagues there are thumbs up (Y)
I should say.. they are considered friends more than colleagues! :D
Many of them are quitting already, hope there's more chances to meet up like on that day! (:
I think we should really organise more outings.. So much fun! (:

Oh wells.. other than my colleagues, of course my school friends!
Really really touched by their actions! ^^
Nicole and Valerie came to J8 to find me specially! Hahaha.
They wanted to go my house but too bad, i'm not at home :P
Didn't know that they will still come and pass me the little cute cake!
Really touched (':
Nicole - my special sms to you, i really meant it! :D

And next, HUA MEITING!
Idk how to further explain/say anything, just.. i love you! (: (: (:
She forgotten my birthday last year and i know she's super guilty for it, hahahaha.
Well.. i really really really can't wait for the thai trip to have fun with you, nic & fel! :D :D :D

LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS - thats all i could say (:
To those who wished me, be it verbal, be it sms, be it facebook, be it if i know you very well/you know me very well, i appreciate that and thank you for that (:
Thinking of this day just warm my heart (:

& JT, thanks for the post, i read it, appreciated (:

L.O.V.E (:

2011-03-20T20:33:00.003+08:00

Wow it has been 2 months since i'm here. Haha. Last post is 23 Jan -.-"
Well, what's my presence here suddenly? Hmm, reason being simple!
I've something nice to share of course :) hahaha.

Thanks V J Z G for the surprise outside my house! Really surprising! Hahaha.
First, i really thought we are going out.
Second, i waited for them until i fell asleep! LOL.
I know they planned to go out and do alot of things which i always want to do, like sing K! But too bad, i'm sick :( hahaha. NEXT TIME OKAY! ^^
And its really thoughtful of them coming to my house to visit me with alot of cooked food. Cooked and nice food! No matter if the food is nice or not, the thought is really nice enough! And of course, the food are all nice luh! Thank you very much :D appreciated!

As you know.. coming to my house is a boring torture >.< hahaha.
So we watched some dvd and started playing mahjong! Lol! And there goes the day! Hah.
Though we are doing the same thing over and over again (like washing tiles and stacking them again) but somehow i feel happy with them around, really appreciate what they've done for me though i'm unwilling to welcome them in initially because of the pop thing they were holding at the door. Hahahaha and i know i did "sweep their mood" LOL :P

Thanks alot for the gifts too! ^^ Though they are not like big diamonds or what, but they are just enough to warm my heart! Haha. Received a domo plushie that is as big as my patrick :D (patrick finally got a friend) and little cards.

Vicky's sushi eraser and the tigger keychain (:
Gerene's recycled book with cute ideas; the book i gave her somemore! (:
Joline's scrapbook with unglam photos and her 4 page "wishes" (they're not really wishes but notes to make us understand each other better, haha) I've read and understood! (:
and finally Zhiqian's dabian domo with her small tiny handwriting (like no money to buy paper, hahaha, kidding la) She's always like that! (:
Plus... all the food that they bought and brought here cooked by their parents XD HAHA.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH PEOPLE.
LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU ALL :D

And my brother said i never thank him, so THANK YOU BOY FOR ALWAYS HELPING IN EVERYTHING HAHAHA (: Like i always said, i hope you can live with me in future to help me with my household XD HAHAHA.

Okay, this is how i spend my Sunday off day! (:
And i'm working tml, how boring.
I hope everything is really fine tomorrow! ):
I will try to clear all my follow up and gna.... really put up the request to transfer department tomorrow! Hmmm..

Pictures will upload it soon (i hope) :D

Three wishes for me right?
*I wish for...*

WORK.

2011-01-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

This is a very sad song. Have yet to really go into the lyrics but the song itself sound very sad ):

Hmmm.. I feel confused & sad & frustrated recently.
Okay, partly i'm not too sure if it is due to work, but yeah, just sad.
After since i started working i realise i'm getting further and further from my normal life of music, shows, videos, sleep and more... LOL. This is really bad & i don't like it :x Hahah.
I'd rather i'm still studying now :/ (not that i want to retain luh -.-)

Dread to work everyday :/
Only think that probably makes me wanna go work will be the money & the people, lol.
Other than that... FORGET IT. Hahaha.

Hmmm. Met one customer today. I've got no idea why i feel super affected by this. I mean, not that he/she scolded me, but it was this customer's account, his/her service was terminated. Reason being because.. this customer passed away ): I mean, i dont know why i feel sad when i first see the reason. And this person's family member called in and enquire about the bill as he/she was being charged the ETC. I mean, obviously they don't have to pay for it because it will be written off, but i just feel sad :/ Like... sigh, i dont know how to say. ):
Let's pray that he/she will rest in peace & everyone else in the family can take things easy and move on. (:
I know i may sound stupid or what, but yeah, thats how i feel... Hah.

This week i didn't have off at all because my off day is on weekday and i guess nobody is like free to go out with me as well. So went back to work for the two off days. Lol. This week i'm going to take a break, no work no work! Zzz.

Cny down for three days! Eve, day 1 & 2! Super sway~ Lol. Hopefully no one will call in (: Haha.

Alright, just here to say something because i'm neglecting my blog! Haha.
Jiayou people, move on! (:

UNHAPPY :/

2011-01-06T15:00:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i feel unhappy.
I feel depressed :/ LOL.
It may sound very funny, but this is really how i feel D:
BOO, sucky!

Maybe i think too much but it seem like you're avoiding me? Lol!
Perhaps you misunderstood? Hah, i really hope not, if not, it will be so awkward! -.-"
Alright, let's hope we can be back to how we just knew each other :)

Work is stress, and i really mean super stress.
I will be stronger after the cry & i know i can handle them.
Jiayou psm! :D

Today off! (:
Gna relax myself and go out buy clothings before i'm back to the workplace tml!
Bye peeps!

Sick!):

2010-12-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah it's sad to say that I'm sick -.- one week of trg only! Lol. Hate this ):

Trg!(:

2010-12-17T23:40:00.002+08:00

Finally it's friday! Seriously love this day because there are two weekends days waiting for me in front :) haha!
Finally one week passed! Everyone in the trg course agreed that this is worse than in school! Haha, but at the same time we should treasure the time now because it will be different when we really start work. Lol.
Lunch time and playing time is always fun :)
Met a few basketballers in fact only two which looks familiar to me because I think I see them before! Haha and after we talked we realized that we played with each other in matches before, no wonder.. Haha!

Lucky someone live near yishun which can accompany me to take train back home from work! Haha hopefully we have same shift! Lol (: then I won't feel lonely, haha.
Went for dinner with colleagues / friends today and talked alot(: didn't really expect that we can mix well! And all same age, except those army guys, which one is quite good looking :D haha! Opps, just kidding (:

And..
I miss those days that we keep talking non stop and gossip about everything! I've got no time to do those things again ):
But anyway hope you can get in then that will be cool! :) Hee.

Weird ):

2010-12-14T22:04:00.001+08:00

One day never msg seems weird but like so many obstacles):
You scared I scared this and that. Sigh.
I feel sad. ):

Dang is just the second day and i feel super tired alr!!):
Hate it! I wanna Friday 6pm, lol): Jiayou ah.... Zzz.

(L)

2010-12-12T11:13:00.003+08:00

I forgot to blog ytd, in fact was busy doing something yet forget what i wanted to say ytd!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (belated alrd) HUA MEITING! (((((:
Met up with her & nicole to have lunch! Though its just a simple lunch at long john but its so fun & nice feeling! (: That lazy-sleepy nicole wants to look for a job & went on to orchard, haha. Mt&I were thinking that she confirm couldn't get a job! HAHA. & realise many shops at np is hiring and we hinted nicole :D HAHA. I miss those secondary school days! (L)
Love love love love them! <3

& i haven met up with clique, i guess felicia will kill me sooner or later, haha!

I'm broke, this week, lol ):

)':

2010-12-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

Tell me a way to get this thing solve..
I don't know how can i talk so that everything is perfect.
I don't know what i should do so that all these won't happen again.
I don't know.. ):

Blame on my mouth.
Blame on my stupid language.
Blame on my irritating mind.
Blame on my idiotic words.

I really don't know what i should do, what i should say, what can i do? ):

RWAR!

2010-12-07T20:35:00.002+08:00

I thought i'd do a good job.
I thought you'll like it.
I thought you'll accept it.
I thought you'll probably want it.
But, they aren't the true.
It turned up to be everything the opposite.
-.-" WHAT IS LIFE. WHAT IS THIS. I HATE IT!

Getting flared up over one small thing seem stupid but i just couldn't help it & couldn't stand it. ):

I WANT TO VEX OUT MY FUSTRATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D:

[:

2010-12-02T22:59:00.003+08:00

Just feel like posting something here for no reason (:

Am i your friend? Hmmm.

I felt burnt again. )':

2010-12-01T01:01:00.002+08:00

I'm supposed to sleep early today! :/ But i didn't notice the time right now! Opps. Shall sleep after this! :)

我不喜欢人家喜新厌旧的那种感觉，而我今天有这种感觉。
我有一种被利用的感觉，也许没有那么严重不过就有一丝丝的这种感觉。
不知道为什么。一之在想是不是我自己的问题，但我真得不知道。
你要我，你就来。你有其他的时候，不需要我了，就把我丢在一边。
这一直是你的态度吗？难道我今天才看清楚？
不想因为这样让我对你有什么改变，因为我真的是真心对待你。
而，也许你不是。

My chinese sound broken hur, its purposely because i didn't want to make things so clear, LOL. :) Feel like blogging so much at that instant but couldn't and have to wait until now, ha! It doesn't really make me feel better, maybe alittle, but not much :/ Hmm. I will forget and be high/hyper again! :D (Lol, this is psm! Hah)

Off to bed, goodnight!
I want to work, for the money! LOL (:
Any high pay job?!

LOVE IN THE AIR :D

2010-11-30T00:22:00.004+08:00

This is the end of As! :D
After two years in this jc, i finally finish my education! Uni will be a different life! Everything will be different. No uniform, lesser restrictions, more projects, less homework(i hope). But all these will be 8 months later! I got 8 months to enjoy myself and earn money! :)

Well, since today is the last paper, in fact, yesterday, i shall talk about my life in jc! Lol. Sounds like graduation day -.-" Haha.
Alright. Yjc isn't that bad as i thought when i first enter. I thought its a lousy school. When you have nowhere to go, you come here, but not that bad afterall because the teachers here are quite good, I mean SOME teachers (: those teachers teaching our class were not bad though! Mrs Ng, though naggy at times but she's quite good. Mrs Lim woah cool chem teacher(HAHA). Mdm Ho, hmm, she may not know how to teach in a understandable way but she's a good teacher because she cares for us, haha. Mr Chong, that insipiring teacher, LOL. Mr Heng, ehhhh.. don't feel like talking about him :X HAHA.

Jc life is so different from sec school life. Not only in terms of the knowledge we need to learn, the skills we need to have, but also in terms of relationship between the people. I seem to have so much to care over here. Unlike in secondary school where everything is so happy-go-lucky. ): Whenever i want to talk something or make a comment, i have to think alot alot whether this will affect anyone but in secondary school, these comments can just be a casual one and nobody will get affected by it. Nvm, this is life, i need to learn! I need this skill out there in the society (: At least i will think of others in whatever i do. But because of this, it makes me feel that i'm living for others and not myself -.-" Zzz. Quarrelled with some friends, made some new friends...

Firstly that ucan'tfindmetoo! Primary school friend, same nursery and kindergarten! Haha. So long never meet you and met you here being the same class for two years! There are certainly instances where our opinions does not match but afterall we're still good friends! (: Those bus trips, those talks, those homework-calls are memorable! Hah.

Secondly! Someone that shares kpop stuffs and idol stuffs with, LOL! We are in the same class for six years including secondary school! HAHA. Thats cool isn't it! :)

Then then then..
We formed our own study buddies! :)
Talking about that special surname KOK! Our characters are quite similar in a way maybe because you're aries too! HAHA. We can celebrate our birthdays together next time, cool uh~ :D that one month of study session made us closer and talk about everything under the sun! (: hee. Stupid jokes and lame shit ones are created and known, haha! I know we most probably won't study the same course in uni(because you're artistic and i'm a dead person-.-), but still hope that we will keep in contact even then! :D Love you! (L)
& because of you! I love to listen to English songs now, heeee! :D

Save the best for the last! (i know she will grumble at me if she didn't see her name, LOL)
Let's name her stupid girl! Thats how i name her in my contacts! :)
That stupid crazy girl who will go crazy as and when she likes -.- I really can't stand her during that period and seriously disliked her in a moment, LOL! Because she's really like typhoon! HAHA. Or maybe erupting volcano! LOL. She can burst out larva(spell*) and burn me anytime of the day. ZZZ. She can face this person and laugh, then the next moment, she turn to me and frown with fire on top of her hair. HAHA. YES, THATS HOW SCARY YOU ARE! LOL. Not only that, her eyes, omg.. don't know what she eat, i can see FIRE in it! LOL. But yeah, my heart is so so so big that i can forget everything almost in half a day and with go to talk to her again with my thick-skin face, LOL. Sometimes when i got burnt again, i was laughed by people saying that i'm stupid, who ask you go near a volcano! HAHA. And and and when i don't go talk to her, she will say i don't care -.-" Being friends is so difficult, tsktsk!

Okay, woah, i complained alot alot, haha!
But yeah, she's kind of my secret partner for these years in jc! :) We shared alot alot of secrets and ya, it is said to be SECRETS hor! LOL. Gossip everything we heard, saw and know! Those days were fun! :) Though i really thought that she disliked me before because of the way she look at me and treat me, but yeah, everything will be fine in a few days, after the volcano cools down :D HAHA. I shall name you volcano instead, lol! :) Thanks for everything! :D

I LOVE STUDY BUDDIES! :)

I don't know if they will see this post, but yeah, this is for myself to recap what i've done over the past two years! LOL. Or i should say, this year! After mugging(not really) and studying for so long, finally everything is over! Just hope for the best and goodnight! Off to sleep! Tml is playing and enjoying life timeeeeee~ :D

& i want to sing K!
Time to meet up with secondary school clique!
Time to meet up with zhiyins'! Miss you all! :)

LOVE YOU ALL.
LOVE MYSELF.
LOVE LWY.
LOVE THE EARTH. :)

Sorry that i love you.

2010-11-13T16:31:00.002+08:00

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And I'm so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won't make any difference tonight
But I'm hoping "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

I love this song :)))))) Nice!
Math & gp paper down! THREE MORE WEEKS TO GO, JIAYOU :D

GO GO GO, I CAN DO IT :D

2010-11-05T10:38:00.003+08:00

I treat my blog like some platform like twitter to write my instant feelings -.-" HAHA.
Alright, thats not the main point! :D
My main point is... I PACKED MY TABLE NEAT NEAT YTD AND NOW IT ONLY CONTAINS CHEM, GP AND MATH! :)
These are the subjects that i'm taking for As in the upcoming week! :D
Gna read through all my tutorials, all my newspaper articles, all my notes, all my papers once more & VOOOOOM, here i go for my As! GO GO GO!
Jiayouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! :D

Happy DE-PA-VA-LI to all! (:
Gg bai bai later and hope it helps for my exam, wahahaha! MOTIVATED! :D
I KNOW I CAN DO ITTTTTT! :D

2010-11-04T16:29:00.001+08:00

I feel the stress ): really felt it.. Hmm.
I don't like the feeling now. Sigh. ):

Last few days!

2010-11-02T23:23:00.003+08:00

Wohoo I can actually post this using touch :D haha
Anyway, left around like 5 days to As! Jiayou Jiayou (:
A feeling of confusion :/ can I do well? Nvm. Just gna put in my very best! Go go go (:

Missed :)

2010-10-24T22:39:00.003+08:00

I gotta say what’s on my mind
Something about us doesn’t seem right…these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try
Somehow the plan is always rearranged
It’s so hard to say
But I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay…

I’ve got to move on, and be who I am
I just don’t belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don’t wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
And it’s just too hard…to watch it all…slowly fade away
I’m leavin’ today
’Cause I gotta do what’s best for me
You’ll be okay...

Was listening to this song on my itouch and many things popped up. Memories (:
881/Deathnote/Vivocity/Market/Neoprints/Msges/Calls/Sacrifies/Cards/Shirt/Keychain/Monkey/many many more.
Take care & enjoy your life :D

16moredays! Jiayou (:

Motivation!

2010-10-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

17 more days!
Idk why I've got a very strong feeling of unhappiness ):

20moredays!

2010-10-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

“有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却
不知道怎样表达；有时候，自己的梦想很多，却力不从心；有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌；
有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累；有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了，却看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。”
Let these SOMETIMEs go, u would get the happiness... (:
Quoted this from xl on fb, so true isn't it!

Alright, real 20days left to As. This is like real fast. I can't believe everything gna start in 20days and once it starts, its gna end real fast too. :/ & rather than wondering if what you did is efficient/does it help, why not put in your best and fight for it? GO GO GO. I must be motivated, i must be! Cannot let other things affect me! 20more days! Jiayou! Jiayou! Jiayou! (:

I feel extra. I don't fit in any place):

Jiayou :D

2010-10-16T13:41:00.005+08:00

23more dayyyyyyys to As!

As is running behind me!

2010-10-02T21:34:00.002+08:00

38 more days to As! Omg, its like... so fast! :O
Jiayou, keep on going.

Graduating on the 8th of oct! (:

Soaked.

2010-09-30T22:17:00.001+08:00

Hello my beloved patrick! Haha. Its swimming in zq's water bottle. XD So cute. Haha. But after quite some time, it become disgusting. :x ha.

成长需要一些曾经 (:

HMT :D

2010-09-26T11:03:00.002+08:00

Hi blog.
Two more weeks to study break. Don't like to wake up so early in the morning, lol. I should say, i can't seem to wake up ):
Alright, i guess its like, less than 50days to alevel. Forget to check my calender how long more, but yeah, i know its' not much days left. Come on, jiayou! (:

Met up with my beloved hmt ytd for breakfast :D So long never see her and got alot of things to catch up with. Haha. Talked about her weird classmates and mine(inside joke) HAHAHA. So fun! Went to the pet shop with her(her usual routine when she comes np) and the dog there ignored her, lol! Feel so great to met up with her! Yeah! :) I guess the next time we'll meet up will be after As! Jiayou and all the best to your As hur :D
Missed(:

Hmm hmm hmm..
Boy's owner, cheer up! Things will be okay~

Itouch or watch.. ):

Watch or ipod touch ):

2010-09-18T15:43:00.003+08:00

Okay, decided to get an itouch after my brother's nlevel :) A few more weeks, think i can hit my target of that sum of money! :D But.. if i buy that, my lwy's watch will have no hope ): Lol. I hope lady luck is on my side and let me winnnnnn from any distrubutor! :/ LOL!

Hmm, prelim results all out. Okay, dont feel like talking about it because it isn't good at all. Shall shut up before anyone feels irritated, hahaha. I hope my gp isn't THAT BAD ): really sad about it. I put in effort and i get that kind of marks? Hmm. )':

Time to work hard, and harder. Just 52 more days! Count down~

Craziness!

2010-09-12T21:00:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha. Domo and patrick craze! XD but I love patrick more (: Haha.

Alright, its monday tml and there's school. Lol. One week of holiday just gone like that. Zzz. Slacked, didn't study much though ): hmm. Another 58more days t Alevel! No more time! Hurry clear all the doubts and do do do revise revise revise! Stop thinking of playing! Lol. I'm telling myself that (:
And i'm using my phone t post, cool. Haha. Hoping t get either the new itouch, or maybe iphone4 if my dad is willing t get one for me. XD shall wait, hmmm. Ciaos peeps :D

One month.

2010-09-07T16:48:00.003+08:00

I'm gna live one month without my maid ):
Not that i'm relying on her that much, maybe i am, but i somehow miss her already.
The house seems super quiet without her, lol.
No one to help me fold blanket ;x
Use what cups or anything must wash ourselves ;x
No more good food ;x
Hmmm, so many things have to change without her here today.
Nevermind, just endure for that one month (:

This worries me. What if one day she really goes back, hmmm, and thats like, one year later. ):
Alright, i can't be so selfish, lol. She's here with us for more than 10years, so it's time for her to go back to see her family too! Haha.

*Teary eyes* ;x

y2j!

2010-09-06T23:09:00.004+08:00

Nice :)

Went to see doctor again today because i haven recover from my stupid cough and it seems getting worse. Got another packet of medicine, with a higher dosage i guess? Sigh. Medicine is flowing in my body now, hopefully this time round i can really cure my stupid illness and stop affecting me. When your throat is itchy, you'll feel super irritated. LOL.

Rockerrrrr :)

Music showcase at Shanghai Dolly on saturday was great :D
Their live is (Y) hahaha. Yuming's voice did pek-ceh a few times but meizhen's voice was woah :D haha. Didn't manage to go to the autograph session on sunday but got my album signed though, with name somemore! Thanks xinyi! Hopefully you didn't ask them to write pms instead XD HAHAHA.

This makes me miss lwy! Hopefully she'll only come during december though :) Alrighttttt, time to work hard and studyyyy! Prelims results not good, buck up!

& maid's leaving tml, bon voyage! hopefully this one month you're not around pass fast, miss you :)

Monkey's 18!(:

2010-09-03T23:56:00.001+08:00

To that sickening asshole monkey, happy birthday :D

):

2010-09-01T21:12:00.002+08:00

Got back a few papers the past three days. Okay, don't wish to talk about it because its not something to be proud of, lol. Especially my math -.- This shouldn't be the marks i'm supposed to get ): hmm, if you're good at that subject from young but you're getting this kind of score, you'll know how i feel. ):

Okay, wishing all the teachers on earth, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! :D
and belated birthday to hiang! (:

72days.

2010-08-29T15:43:00.002+08:00

This two days didn't do anything, just very guai and stay at home to 养病 haha :)
Tomorrow is monday = got school! But, thats the last week of school before the september break. Hopefully i won't be called back to school because of my lousy results :/

Alrightttt, i need to save up money to buy alot alot of things...
(after Alevels) hee :)

exact 72days to Alevel! :/

Sick.

2010-08-28T00:07:00.002+08:00

Prelims over! This marks the real countdown to Alevels though, lol.
Hmm, i think it will definitely be sad hours when i get back my results next week, two days after to be exact. ):
Alright, i'll treat that as a lesson and move on from there and work harderrrrr! :D

Fall ill during the second week of prelim. My cough got worse! :/ Didn't see the doctor until prelims is over, which is today. So i dragged one week of cough that almost hurt my lungs. Lol. Severe cough can make one unable to breathe! -.- Luckily i don't have asthma, if not i think i'll be in the hospital now! (choy, touchwood*)

Okay okay, time to rest. The doctor say i lack of sleep, lol, which is quite true. I must get back my health to fight a more tedious war! :)

RAWR.

2010-08-23T19:53:00.001+08:00

Chem paper two, chem paper one, phy paper two, econs paper, phy paper one. One more week to go, jiayou~~

Don't repeat your mistakes again.

2010-08-20T16:25:00.002+08:00

I like this photo :)

Alright. Finally one week passed. Four papers down. One more week to go. Sigh. Disappointed with myself. I guess i didn't put in enough effort ): Screwed up all the papers, most disappointed for today's maths. I guess everyone think that the paper is relatively easy but i didn't perform to the standard i'm expecting. ): Threw temper at myself just now ): Really feel sad, but what's the point when what is done cannot be undone ): Sigh.

I really feel the stress.. from myself.

Next week one whole week of papers. I cannot let this happen again! Roarrrrrrrrr):

Oh yeah, changed skin (:

And suddenly quite in love with the colour red. Wanted to get a red converse shoes but apparently i can't find the design i saw at queensway ): So i settled with a red leecooper one! :D And lwyyyy has a hot red jackettttt, i like :D

LWYYYYYY! (L)

Add more oil hur~

2010-08-12T10:47:00.001+08:00

If time could tune in today and we left too many things to say
If we could turn it back what would we want to change? but now’s the time to take a chance
C’mon, we got to make a stand
What if we gotta lose the choices in our hands
And we can find a way to do anything if we try to

It never was a night at day and then the week will fade away
Let it be. nothing less. and let the dreams remain.
Take a leap and fade and hope you fly, feel what it’s like to be alive
Give it all, what we’ve got and lay it all on the line
And we can find a way to do anything if we try to

Will you be by my side? We’ll do this together.
Just you and Me. Nothing is impossible. Nothing is impossible!

Live like there’s no tomorrow, (cause all we have is here right now)
Love like it’s all that we know. (The only chance that we ever found)
Believe in what we feel inside, Believe in it and it’ll never die.
So never let this life pass us by
Live like there’s no tomorrow.

Last few more days before prelims is here.
Last lap, go go go! :)
Add more oil before the engine dies off :D

HURT):

2010-08-08T22:38:00.002+08:00

I didn't show it out, but i really feel sad for not given the distinction award.
Facebook shows college day pictures flooding my news feed, and i don't see my face inside ):
I may not deserve as much as the rest of the people, but i think i did my part in the team. Just feel sad and unfair ):
Alright, no point saying about it because it's useless. I hate ksy!! :/

Hmm, just realised i seem to be always the last one to know about everything. I think i'm not even your friend yeah, thanks alot hur. Now i know how SMALL i am in your heart.

Looking for my bag and shoes these two days but i can't seem to find a suitable one. I think i'm getting a pair of converse shoes (: As for my bag, i shall slowly hunt for it because nothing really catches my eyes.

Went to town with my brother today. For the first time i'm out alone with him. He was complaining because we have to walk long distances, but actually the distance isn't really far, lol. He's damn weak as yknw~ Lol. Despite always saying that he's petty and stuffs, but today he's quite generous :) Mac and drinks today are all on him! Hahah. And i make him pay more for a mini bag that we shared together, lol. :D

National day tmrw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :)

Get serious!

2010-08-01T11:35:00.002+08:00

Realised that it was quite sometime since i wrote something NEW here (:
So i've decided to blog! At the same time, not knowing what to blog too ;/ Isn't this contradicting?

Alright, let me wish sylvia & agacia happy birthday (31Jul) :D
Went to have a little picnic at lower seletar reservoir with the clique! It's been long since i met them and yaye, it was quite an enjoyable one. I see how mariah become more and more pervertic, hahaha. A pity some couldn't join us. Nicole! Hope you're fine! :)
Next up will be that bajitku's birthday and she said she want to go pub :/ LOL.

Today today! Nette's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASS :)
I doubt she's going to see this, but i just blog for fun, hahaha. Hope you're enjoying your day! :D

Alright, time to stop all these, no more time to waste, just two more weeks to prelim and this is like seriously so scary! :x
& yeah, i'm not gna let anything affect me! I shall stay focus and shut off any distraction around me! :) Afterall, when you tried something so hard and one don't appreciate, then what for?

PATRICK :D

2010-07-15T23:17:00.004+08:00

OMG IT'S PATRICKKKKK!
I want this shirt! (((((((:
But it's super uper expensive, three digit, LOL.

Alright, asp this week. Survived with three hour of chem on wednesday and i seriously feel brain dead after that. Haha. Mrs lim really going through super fast. Copying the answer of the previous qns, she finished the next qns, LOL. See how fast she is :/ haha. Asp program not easy to go through. It's just the first week, many more weeks to go, dang ;x

Prelim in another exactly one month! 16August is first paper, omg. So fasttttt! ):
Reviseeeeee!

:/

2010-07-12T00:01:00.002+08:00

Why are we like this now):

PRELIM IS BEHIND ME!

2010-07-09T22:06:00.004+08:00

Fridayyyyy today! (:
This week seem to pass quite slowly, and it's like finally its friday! FINALLY i mean, finally.
Started off the week feeling very tired, and was really dead yesterday :/ Lol. Tired!
Hmm, last week of normal timetable, next week onwards will have a new timetable with afternoon special programme(asp). Sound so interesting and cool right, i tell you, shuckkkks! HAHA.

Mon: econs asp, not that bad.
Tue: no asp (:
Wed: chem asp, i think will end at around 5plus.
Thur: math asp, till 530pm ):
Fri: phy asp, think will end late toooooo. D:
This is because of intensive revision!! Bear with it, just a few more weeks to prelim (:O, omg, so fast) and about 120days to alevel! :O

Oh yeah, had phototaking today! Not bad not bad though!

I wanttttttt clothes from stage! So exxxxx ):
Show coming to singapore tml for the ribbon cutting thing :D Feel like going, but when i go, i feel like buying the shirt there, but its' soooo ex, so forget it, lol. Wait till i got money! XD Nice button shirt, nice t-shirt, nice cap, roarrrrrrrrrr!

YO, JY (:

Take nature as its course.

2010-07-02T20:54:00.004+08:00

顺其自然.. 期望越高，失望越大.
I'm really scared about As, that is like coming soon, real soon.
I know if i don't study, i'm not gna do well. But i'm thinking even if i study, can i do well? Well, i shall answer my own question.

That is, to do your very very best. If you did your best, there's nothing you can whine about, there's nothing you can be sad about, even if .. (touchwood) you didn't do well because, you did your best (:

The race haven start, don't give up, if not you'll lose.
The marathon has started, don't give up, if not the route you ran till so far will be nothing.
Jiayou, just a few months more. It's difficult, but endure, perservere, and go on. (:

But but but remember that you're like a spring. Stretching yourself is a good thing, but stretching and pushing yourself too much over the limit of proportionality isn't a good thing. Because, you'll get the opposite of what you expect.

I hope i do make sense. This is what i got out of myself after thinking and listening to what my mum said :)

-
Confused. So many things to care about. Studies, friendship and stuffs. Seem like, it's my first time having so many problems. Tests, all gonna fail. Econs, study like never study. Maths, sigh, really disappointed, depressed, i'm really sad about it. ): i feel like shouting, screaming, and crying.. anyone there? )':
I'll be okay right? Yes, i'll be alright.
You stumbled over a rock, try to get your balance back!

Tried my best, talked my best, but what i get? RUBBISH!
I AM NEGATIVE.

人的奇妙。

2010-06-26T18:35:00.002+08:00

My cousins came to stayover at my house yesterday (:
It's been long since they came over and play, hahaha. We were all busy with our work. Think the last time they stayed over was like, a few years ago? Lol. Suddenly miss them so i called over to ask for permission from their mum :D Lalala~
Didn't play as much because they also brought their homework along here to study! :D
They just left, i mean, really just. Haha.

And now, I...
有一种思念的感觉.
Yes, this is what i want to say (:
最奇妙的是，I didn't talk or play with them as much, but yeah..

人，往往都有一些莫名其妙的感觉。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~

Alright, suddenly feel great expressing out my feelings and thoughts in chinese, so cool :)
Well, i guess we'll meet soon of course :D

Hmm. Listening to lwy songs now, loveee(:
Back to work yo. Tml i'm out for the whole day so i guess that'll be the last day i could enjoy myself before i set myself back to school agn :D

Preparing my mind :)

2010-06-26T16:27:00.002+08:00

School is reopening in another two days. Time to speed up alittle for the last few lap of the marathon :) Sounds motivating right? Hahaha~

Alright, read some blogs that i suddenly remember reading and find that the society is really cruel. Things will not go as smooth as you might be thinking it will. You'll only know when you stepped into the society. So, what you gna do now is to study hard and get a good cert so that you won't suffer that much when you're out into the society (: Hah, i don't know why after reading that post i got this OS. LOL.
Everywhere everyone is graduates, it depends how outstanding you're :]

I've decided to hack everything & just move forward :D
Some things are not worth to care about because the other party don't even care.
So why should i bother and be sad about it? Roar.
I don't know if thats your real reason, or just a reason to fu yan me. Or are you trying to 'revenge' as what you may be thinking about? I don't know, and i don't feel like caring anymore..

2 more dayyyyyys to school reopen! :)
Not very sad about it because i find that it's kind of no difference as i'm still forced to study everyday, haha. So i shallllll pack up my mind and have the correct mindset & bring that to school ^^

I love her singing, not bad not bad :D

Summer's desire.

2010-06-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

I found a new nice show just up not long: SUMMER'S DESIRE! :D
It's niceeee though i just started watching it not long! Alright, i'm random :)

Hmm, why didn't you reply me.

PAPA DAY!

2010-06-20T23:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAYYYYY! (:
I emptied my wallet & luckily got exactly the price of the punk star shirt for him. Hahah. I scared it might be too kiddy for him but he said he wants to be young so suit him then :D
Wanted to buy the same design shirt for myself but not enough money, cannot get that 20% discount. Sigh. ): But i got two kind of shirts i want from the punkstar shop, so if i got the $.$ i can buy 2 for myself (: & got discount! :D :D LOL, sounds so auntie huh, hahaha~

I want a superman shoe that i saw the other day, my mum say she gna buy it for me! It's not that cheap but at least cheaper than a pair of basketball shoes so to her, it's worth it XD HAHA. Alright, i've been wasting my time around this week. Next week school reopen, but at the mean time, im not leave sg & NOT COMING BACK ANYMORE~ HAHAHA, kidding kidding. Be right back as soon (:

I hope we'll get back to how we're.
Ciaoooo~

宽恕

2010-06-17T12:54:00.002+08:00

宽恕

挤出的笑容看起来好突兀
我走错一步坠入万丈深谷
还是会想起你的荒唐糊涂
针刚刺在心上血流已如注
背叛了幸福拿爱当赌注
曾把感情放逐何时能结束
遇到你我想停止游牧让爱归真返璞
漂泊会落幕承诺说得那么铭心刻骨

你的眼泪让我无助
你懂不懂我为爱忍辱
努力学习宽恕原谅那错误
不甘我们的爱死在半途

听见你的心还在哭
遗忘不及痛蔓延速度
希望你能觉悟我真的领悟
伤口慢慢愈合再被爱包覆

Iphone4

2010-06-12T12:32:00.004+08:00

I always say i prefer an itouch to an iphone, but after watching this, the new iphone4, i regret saying i want an itouch XD hahaha. I want this new iphone4! Watch finish this & you'll know! It's like... OMG! I LOVE IT :D HAHAHA. but whether or not its good, it's another question, hmmm. :)

Confused life.

2010-06-10T16:23:00.006+08:00

I saw hua.mei.ting todayyyyyy (:
It's like super super long never see her already, haha.
Guess where's she is going to? See dog at the pet shop! (always) :D
Alright, hope she's doing well & i guess she is! Yay, miss you ass! (:

Hmm, tml having chem paper3 test on whole organic! I guess it would be terrible if i fail, but may i know how to pass? For the past few few organic tests, i didn't do well no matter how much i studied, hmm, it's not a good sign. I'm starting to feel stress these few days, lol. Everywhere i go makes me think of studies. No time no time, no more time, not enough time.

Prelim starting in term3 week6, meaning, i've got about 8weeks from now on, approximately two months? HEARD THAT? TWO MONTHS! ROAR. Yeah, this is a two year course and you're about to complete. You're at the last lap! Don't give up alrgt! It may be very tough at certain path, but when you're over with that, you'll feel accomplished and cheer with joy! I'll be waiting for that day, go go go jiayou! :D

Okay, i feel so much better now, mentally, with encouragement, from myself, to myself, :)
But i'm not okay physically! Lol. Don't know what i ate the past few days, having diarrhoea. I thought it had stopped ytd but i got it again today! ): 'm afraid that i may have some illness to my stomach! Lol. Scaryyyyy~

What's the cause?
What can be the solutions to it then?

SHEEN :)

2010-05-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

Something high to share about :D
Okay, i'm lazy to upload the photo i took so i koped sam's one from fb :)

Bye, i'm off to sleep :)
I want to save up!

)':

2010-05-29T23:02:00.005+08:00

I'm the one who started everything,
so i guess you can just throw me aside and ignore me,
and go back to your life before you mixed with me.
Perhaps, things will be better for you.
You'll find where you're supposed to go, where you belong.
You'll perhaps feel comfortable, like how you were initially.

I'm sucha pest.
Why things become like this...
It isn't like this last time )':

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Sad heart ):

2010-05-27T22:07:00.003+08:00

Yes, nobody is wrong.
She's not wrong, you're not wrong.
I'm the one that is wrong, from the very beginning.
If i didn't exist, i guess there won't be such a problem.
If there's no such things as friends/clique, there won't be such a problem.
Yes, it is me that caused everything.

When things happen, i only know how to avoid.
I only know how to change topic.
I only know how to act as if nothing happen.
I won't initiate to try to solve whatever is going on.
Everything sounds as if i'm the hypocrite yeah?
Ya, i guess so. And i think i am, in your eyes, in everyone's eyes, I AM.
Yes, i think i'm one.

But i feel like asking one question,
do you really feel that i never never treat you as my best and close friend before?
do you mean that all along talking and telling you so much things, i'm just entertaining you, fu yan-ing you?
do you really feel so neglected?
I don't do anything, doesn't mean i ignore you.
Is because i just want to let you calm down, perhaps when i tried to ask you what happen, it will set you off thinking those things again and make you worse.
I don't do anything, doesn't mean i don't care about you.
I don't do anything, doesn't mean i never treat you as a friend.
IS BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS MY CONCERNS FOR SOMEONE!

I'm sorry that i didn't know how you feel when you're with them,
but, do you know how i feel being in where i am now?
You think i feel comfortable?
Nah, you're wrong. Is just that i never show it out.

Come to think of it,
do you really understand me then? ):
Do you know that i'm someone who don't know how to express my feelings?
Do you know that i'm someone who is sad but will not say so?
Do you know that a happy-go-lucky person has the most sad heart?
DO YOU KNOW?!
):

I know of many things,
is just that i never say out,
because i don't know how to express my concern and care for you..
NOT BECAUSE I DON'T CARE.
NOT BECAUSE I NEVER TREAT YOU AS MY FRIEND.

I feel sad.
Now i know why i feel sad.
I have a sad heart.

I feel more sad listening to my blogsong.. ):

Is it so difficult.

2010-05-12T21:21:00.002+08:00

Seriously speaking, is it really my fault?
Why everything i seem to be the most unlucky one.
Not that i always remember those small stuffs, but i think it's not the first time, not the second time already ):
I don't feel angry, instead i feel sad.
For what, i don't know -.-" LOL.
I just feel that this kind of things always happen on me ):

I really feel sad, really sad.
That's because i treasure.

Cope.

2010-05-03T13:30:00.002+08:00

I must learn to be happy (((((:
I don't know why i feel so down recently.
When i'm alone settling down, alot of things running in my mind.
What if i don't do well for As..
What course am i supposed to take..
What's my future..
Sigh. So many things unknown, and perhaps, unexpected too.

I know i'm supposed to work hard now, and stop thinking about those rubbish stuffs,
but i just feel.. empty, i don't know where i want to go, i feel so no direction sense (I am -.-)
Sigh....

I need the motivation to go on, come on, don't give up, jiayou psm! :))))
Throw away those unhappiness in your mind,
keep in mind that you have to keep on going. :D
A few more months only, very fast, GOOOOOOOO ON.
(:

Hah, i think i need some stress management talk, LOL!

Last event.

2010-05-02T16:12:00.004+08:00

Cute & hyper her :)

One of my fav songs in her album :D

All th best to sam! :)
Hope she'll be doing well in taiwan! MISS US HERE! XD

Shall do homework, ciao~

CONCENTRATE!

2010-05-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

Last friday, the last match, yes, it was the best match though. (: Thanks team 2010 for putting up your best best best effort on that day! Really happy to see a match that the hearts of the 5 players on court playing are with the other players outside the court! Although i think we can do better and can win them, we've already done our best! If only we train harder with better stamina, lol. But overall, yeah, it's a good one to end off Adiv like this! J1s, next year is yours, all the best! :D

Yes, finally end of seasons. I feel.. super relieved. I can finally settle down and concentrate on my studies! Come on, 191days more to Alevels! Jiayou jiayou jiayou! :)

Went to casio roadshow on friday, the watches so nice, but poor me can't afford, lol. But i got a poster :) gee. Nevermind, i must save up & maybe get it sooner or later :D I must buy! Lol. Was thinking to buy one for my mum for her birthday & mother's day but apparently, i don't have time to save up because it's coming soon, LOL.

Alright, she's back to taiwan to prepare her 3rd album, so she won't be here so soon i guess, i hope it will be after my As the next time she comes, hahah. No more distraction for me! :) LOL. Sounds so bad ;x

Stress is on me, i can feel it.
I feel like crying, LOL.

& samantha is leaving, idk why i got the feeling of .. sadness. All the best! :)

SEASON IS GG TO BE OVER SOON.

2010-04-28T22:30:00.002+08:00

Last match on friday, must do our very very best! Next time want play also don't have already, hah. :) Jiayou girls! Let's keep today's mentality of winning for the next match too! Let's don't be affected by some people who gave up on us, depends on ourselves, jiayou jiayou! :D

Something shocking today! :O hahah.
My mum has been playing my facebook cafeworld, so she goes to my fb occasionally. I didn't tell her that lwy is coming, but she found out herself from fb! LOL. Power her :/ hahaha. I thought she can't read anything in fb but just her games & those stupid notifications on my profile, so damn irritating ;x but she knows about the things going around me, woahhhh! HAHA.

Okay, nevermind. I have nothing to hide from her too, lol :)
& i think i sprained my ankle today! -.-" Okay, actually idk how does it feels like when you sprained your ankle because i never really sprained before (touchwood) LOL. I hope tml's not swollen, if not friday... gonecase :(

I saw my candy took today! HAHAHA. Jy for your match too :)

I'm tired enough, off t bed, haven touch any hw ;x Lol. Bye ciao people~

(Y)

2010-04-26T22:28:00.002+08:00

The first song makes me tear! :'D (Y)
Motivation! :)

I can't afford.

2010-04-25T16:03:00.002+08:00

Woots, it's sunday today, which means it is monday tomorrow ):
Start of another week, marks the end of the previous week.
Time flies, i haven start my revision for As. This is damn bad, dang.
Shall try to start after this week, after my competition. :)

Alright, match with hci wasn't a good one. Felt so useless that i can't do anything better t help the team. Nevermind, forget the unhappiness & look forward to the next match! We must fight til th end :) Jiayou girls! Two more matches only, hang on!

Really, sincerely hope that this week is a better week.
Wed & Fri match. Fri got event, hopefully i can get down?

Omg, i feel so down suddenly):
I can't afford what others can afford, then stil want to follow?
Do what you can do, don't force yourself, you'll be the one suffering. ):

Ciao~

Be tough. Be cute.

2010-04-15T19:20:00.002+08:00

Omg, this is like super cool, its' nice! :D
She's the spokesperson of casio baby-G, like woahhhhh! :)
But the watch is not cheap! Save up! But i think i will stil not have enough money though, lol! ):
Anyone wanna sponser me? XD Hahahah.

Alright, this week is hectic idk why, tests after tests. Luckily tml's chem is postponed if not i will die ): Lol. Finished econs and math test this week. Pw results tml, this is confirmed, hahaha. Have been postponing and tml is the real date, lol. Omg, so scary :O i feel scared now, lol. Argh.

One more week to competition, my conditions stil not very good, need to train on my stamina :)
After that, can really settle down and study, come on, jyjyjy! :D

JIAYOU JIAYOU.

2010-04-11T14:27:00.003+08:00

PTR last friday, hmmm, a lot to reflect. My gp and econs both U grade ;/ what have i been doing?! Zzz. I don't know why i feel super sad & demoralised after hearing what the two teachers said about my results lol. Needa work hard i know, but i can't find the motivation to pick myself up to study): Someone help me?!
Now i've got gp remedial every tuesday... for very WEAK students):

Alot of tests coming up this week. Jiayou jiayou.
Silent reader, cheerup & chill, jiayou for your tests too! :)

No more entertainment for you psm! Back to studyyyyyy! ONLY NOTES & NOTES, no more!
Competition faster come and go luh, so irritating! ):

Oh yeah, pw results stil haven out, so slow): Think is this coming week getting back, hopefully no more heart attack! :/

Its' not very good to see two 'U's in your report slip.
Yes, it's time to work hard, don't complain, jy.

I looked at those photos, i miss you and the times we spent together! Glad you're doing great now ;)

LWY BIRTHDAY (L)

2010-04-08T22:21:00.003+08:00

This is funny! Lol :) saw it at today's baifenbai! I keep laughing whenever i see this, lol!

This song is niceeeee! :D
And seriously, i want go their concert luh, but too late :( No more tickets, roarrrr. Anyone win tickets from anywhere but already have ticket give me! HAHA. :D Saddddd, i'm gna miss such a wonderful concert. Why didn't i buy that time~ Boo :(

Alright, today is 8th of April, a very special day for a special person :D
Happy birthday my dearrrrrrrrrrrr lwy! XD
Love da xiong :D

Her concert in LA was a successful one, yaye! :)
Cuteeeee!

PTR tml, pw results release tml, i wonder how is it, dang omg!
All th besttttt :)

EPOP!

2010-04-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

Just realised its the 444th post, woah. & i should blog on the 4th april instead, lol! :)
Today is only tuesday, like abit slow huh. Hahah. Hopefully this week can faster passed, don't feel like dragging the week, very tiring :/ Ytd training drained me off today): Really tired. Boo.

Okay, don't know why i'm here also, just wanna emphasize on the 444th post, lol. I want last week's epop luh! :( can't find anymore, why why why~ i'm sad now. Bye!

TEAM!

2010-04-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

Sat today! Ytd went saomu & so is it for tml, oh dang. Not even a weekend for homework afterall :( wasteeeeeed!

Went out with team today! :D Sounds cool saying 'team' :) HAHA.
Had a great outing though! Talked & crapped & joke alot! Yay. We should have more of this to bond us more together, i love it! :) Oh yeah, we can study together before trainings also! Yessss! :) I'm motivated to study & train hard toooo! Yeah, self-trainings!

Pictures are not with me, jeanette, where are you! & charmaine! LOL :D
Alright, a few more weeks to Adivision, jiayou jiayou jiayou! :)
Studies come first XD HAHA.

Oh yeah, pw results releasing this coming week's friday, so scary. Hope things go well & smooth! If i don't get what i want, i think i will really cry.. :(

A BIG SIGH.

2010-04-01T23:00:00.003+08:00

Sigh, say a big sigh to psm. She didn't do well for her block test, or i should say, did below the expectations? Hmm. Disappointing, like what mrs ng said ):
Gp is seriously a big big BIG problem to me. Yes, newspaper. Stacks and stacks of newspaper infront of you everyday, are you reading it? NO. So, serve you right for getting such results. Sigh. ): Everytime your mind said you want to do this, but when you get home, did you follow your plans closely? NO. See, serve you right again! ):

A GradeU will not even get you into any uni, or i should say, your cert is a useless one! A GradeC/D will not get you anywhere into uni too! Where's your A? ):

Sigh, how to make myself wake up?! I seriously seriously need someone to slap me or scold me up! ): My mum scolded me, again, but i'll only work hard for a few days then back to square 1 again. Where's my motivation to study? How did i study for my Os? How did i study for my promos? At least those times were really studying, how about now! I'm not! I'm just wasting my time! ): Sigh. Psm ah psm~ sighhhh )':

Competition coming up, a really bad thing for me i guess? I want to run with good stamina, i want to do proper layup without miss, i want to shoot in every ball. On top of all these, i need to handle my school work too! How how how, you tell me):

So many problems recently within me. Hate this feeling. Can someone help me? )':
I want the real-happy days back!): Come on, find back how you study during the days, and start workingggg. You got no more time! Jiayou ahhhhhh !!!!!

I'm unreasonable, yeah.

2010-03-28T15:24:00.003+08:00

I suddenly feel so empty, why this is so, lol.
Had a great time with them ytd! (:
Enjoyed every moment! I feel happy with them, hah, sounds weird but its' true! :D Talked alot! & realised that xl is gna leave us sooner or later to tw, idk why i feel.. sad. Should be happy for her but..? Haha, i think every other people have the same feeling too i guess? Hmm, i've got a very weird and confusing feeling, haha. Hope things can be settled for them though i can't help in anything. But i'm willing to listen :) & of course, help out when needed!
A small thing can erupt so badly, sigh):

Meet me out again! I missed the flyer, without realising, lol. How come! Lol :/
Hello my silent reader, remember to keep me update because i will be busy and seldom go online sometimes! (you know who you're right? HAHA)
Go out soon! I feel no-stress-feel with them, i like the feeling, thank you peeps! :)

Tml school starts, again.
One term ends, the start of the second term & this term is really going to go fast. SPA exams coming up this term. More topics coming up. Syllabus finishing. Revision starting. Prelims nearing. Alevel is a step nearer.
Time to get back to work, and stop thinking to have fun!):

Sometimes you feel so tired, that you feel like giving up everything.
But before you give up, think of how far you've come.
Is the last year, the last lap, the last round of your marathon.
Take a deep breath & endureeeeee!
Come on, i know you can do it! Jiayou jiayou jiayou psm!

YOU who are reading this, hope this motivates you to keep on working, shout out to yourself: "JIAYOU" :)

4 years of psp tml! (L)
I remembered how we get to know each other, the things we used to give each other, the letters we write to each other, the secrets we shared, the good times & the bad times! Thank you! Memories! :) The years will go on! Love you! :D

2603

2010-03-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

Hey my bt, i'll be OKAY, really okay soon.
Things need to be settled within myself before things will really get well.
Adjustment.

I think i'm not treasured at all.
Just grass yeah? Hah. (Just kidding, lol, don't sound like though)

This is gna be a so-boring-&-emo-post.
So i'm gna stop here. :)
Eh, i should say, soon. Gee.

Block test ended today, with chem paper. It was okay with difficulty though, lol. I just hope i won't fail any of the subjects esp gp because i think i really got out of point for everything i wrote in there. :/
Math trail dry run tml. Sick & i still need to go, why? If not i'll leave Shat Ting alone there):

Today is a happy day for a happy girl!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE WONG SHI HUI (:
Love love love you!
My exams are just over, give me some time to get your present ready & i'll give you two years' present :P HAHA, last year's stil with me :x lol! Hope you'll have a great year this year with your poly starting in less than a month's time! :) I'm sure you'll make alot alot of friends but please, DON'T FORGET ME HOR! HAHAHA.
Touched that i wrote a compo for you not?! (A failed compo i think, 'cause too short :P) HAHA, but content sure 100marks! :D HAHA.
No matter what, stil wna say, you're treasured! :)

3 more days to 4 years, time really flies, woah :D
SEE THIS: Psp is loved! :)

Block test!

2010-03-21T22:37:00.003+08:00

Today is a very special day, for psm :)
She's one year older, grow up already or not! Hahah. :D
This very special day falls on a very sway & unlucky day because tml is block test): & it is also the last day of holiday, dangggg!
Must change my mood now, lol, change to exam & serious mood! Boo.
Gp tml, omg, i don't wna fail. Please let me pass!):

Econs essay haven do, math prelim papers haven do finish, all due tml, lol. Hopefully i'm motivated to stay back after test to do? :/ Zzz. Hate this! Why why why!): Boo. Alright, stop whining, you should start to focus already luh! Lol. I keep procrastinating(i wonder if i spelled correctly) Ugh.

Oh yea, special thanks to that siaogina who came to my house early in the morning to disturb my sleep, haha! & also Felicia & Nicole for the surprise :D THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH! Touched(: of course, all those who wished me birthday either through facebook/sms! Really thanks! Many remembered my birthday like so surprising! hahah. Thank you :))))) love you all :D

Ciao, good luck for everyone taking block test this week :)

Thank you! :)

2010-03-19T23:39:00.004+08:00

Studied at cc today :)
Sore throat, sucks. Lol. I feel like taking out my throat & rub it & make it smooth because it seems very 'chokey'(i know there's no such word) now, hahaha. Zzz. Alright, two more days to block test, roarrrr.

Ytd had a great time with my fc friends :D I know none of them will read this but yeah, stil wna thank them, alot alot :) Its' great knowing them! Fc may seems like only the main character is here then we'll meet up because of her, but actually not really the case! Its' the friends & the bonds we made there :D They're really nice & i didn't expect myself to join in them so well! :D hahah. Again, i stil wna thank everyone of you who made an effort to take up your time to celebrate with me XD loves!
All th unglam photos & everything not with me! Roar):

Two more days, make full use of your time alright.
Jiayou psm :)

I've made my wish for this year's birthday, hope it can really come true hur~ :D